Limit

It turns out that I miss her a lot lately, which surprised me.

Funny how I didn't see this coming.

Thought if I try not to call her and not email her and stop msging her and get out of her life, I'll be happier...

Well, I am happier. But somehow it felt like something's missing.

I wish I can still do something for her. Anything.

I wonder what's the limit of love? Or is love limit-less?

All I want is her happiness, with me by her side or not. I'd do anything I can to make her smile. Even though she's not my girl anymore, I'm still hers.

Is that true love? Or is it merely a twisted feeling in this twisted world? Simply want someone to be happy and ask nothing in return doesn't seems making any sense to many.

Sometimes, even not making any sense to myself. And whenever that thought came up, I'll press it down by thinking how much I owned her. And so much she had given me that I can never return no matter what.

So I'll still do anything for her, just to make her happy. Even when she doesn't need me anymore.

Is that true love? Is that the best I can do? Or can I do better than that?

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At least, I can hope that as time passes on, I'll finally be able to actually move on.

This is stupid... as usual...