Can't live like this anymore...

Last night I couldn't sleep.

And the reason is ordinary - something bothers me.

Well... I'm a fast sleeper. And for those of you who knows me well, I can easily fall asleep under almost any circumstances (some are dangerous).

I ought start the story from last friday.

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Friday nights equals no more party nights - I'm not sure if that's a good thing or not.

So there I was, dragging my feet home and started doing this big assignment I gotta hand-in by Monday. To my surprise, this assignment is actually pretty fun to do. We get to simulate and manipulate a bunch of data and fooling around with a lot of numbers... sounds like some major fun for geeks. Well, I guess I still had party - math party.

Math is fun. If you know what you're doing.

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Around 11pm, I decided to take a break and started Dota. After 20 min., I kinda realized that playing by myself is not that productive. And those trash talks over battle.net are rather repetitive. And repetitive is rather boring.

So I hooked up my GC and started Monkey Racing. After beating a couple of Ken's record, I've realized that it's kinda boring too. I mean, what's the point of beating his record if he's not going to beat my record back?

By the time I decided to stop Monkeying, I was pretty tired to change disc and thus rolled to bed and fell asleep soon after.

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Saturday I was suppose to go BBQ with Shirley, but it turns out my parents need me to help them in the afternoon - to pick up some guys and to do some garden work. Basically that means I'm stuck at home again and I had no choice but keep working on my big assignment.

If producing an assignment is like building a boat, Friday night I finished sketching my boat, I've spend Saturday all day to build the bones of the freaking boat and finally, warpped it up by Sunday Noon.

After I eventually printed out the assignment, a sense of satisfication and joy of fullfillment filled my heart. And I decided to slack for the rest of the day, trying to ignore the fact that I still have 2 assignment due this week.

I played a couple more Dota, loaded up my RE4 and was thinking if I should play Wind Waker or not...

Later that night, I went out to watch Robots with Jessica. Hmm... to make it simple and nice, that movie is for people who are under age of 11.5. Just a graphically pretty (not even stunning) movie to me.

After the movie, I got home, and fooled around the Internet, then my GC, and went to bed.

To my surprise, I couldn't sleep.

I suddenly realized that I can't live like this anymore!!

I need to start, I need to get going!!

I gotta stop mindlessly playing RE4 and Dota. I need a target!

And the problem comes.

Technically speaking, I should be finishing up my Pikmin 2 and Wind Waker. But lack of motivation is dragging me away from playing those great games.

Perhaps it's a good time to get a new game. But the question is, which one?

I stayed up all night, thinking:

Should I get Minish Cap? But the replay value is low.
Should I get Metriod Prime 2? But it's a little too complicated for now and I may not have time to finish it.
Should I get Viewtiful Joe 2? But it seems like it's just Viewtiful Joe, again.
Should I get Mario RPG? But Cal says he'll lend me. And again, no replay value whatsoever.
Should I get Street Fighter Anniversary Edition? But I'll need a joystick... and a PS2...
Should I try to get in some clans of Dota? ... well ... Ben... should we do that?

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It turns out I stayed up till 4 in the morning, and still couldn't figure out which one i should be getting or to be doing. It'll probably be minish cap. But my heart is not yet settled.

My conclusion is:

Life is hard... full of choices... hopefully I'll get a better sleep tonight, since I've already sorta decided which game I'm going for.

God bless...