seems like i'm a little sick now... running nose, burning throat and stuff...

it's 4:30 in the morning and i don't know why i wake up so early. I guess my time has been all messed up since vacation start.

Just had a really weird dream about I was on the plane back to vancouver and realized I've left my canadian passport at home...

I guess that's what wakes me up...

Wednesday night we went party at Tina's, thursday I slacked.

Today I gotta get things done. I forgot to call her back... actually I fell asleep... grr... anyways.

For some reason, I was reading the e-mails she wrote to me when I was back in Viet. They looked strangly distant to me nowadays. Seems like letters from last life.

Lack of self-confidence, it seems, is one of my biggest problems. When we were on a break, if only I have act more mature, maybe things won't turn out this bad. But I was all alone... sign ...

When people ask me now why did I let her go, I always answer becoz she's always free to try out. Sounds like I'm very mature, but that's not what it seems like in the letter. I don't have any letter that I've sent to her, but according to her reply, it sounds like I was pretty screwed. Nagging and threatening her about breaking-up all the time. Damn, that must be really annoying. If I were her, I wouldn't want to be with a childish nagging kid as well.

No wonder we broke up.

被打碎的心中
想得到的並非幸福