最近的問題

好癢... 過敏這種東西還真是煩人... 更煩的是找不到過敏源, 大概明後天要去給 Family Doctor 看一下ㄌ...

六點十四分, 晚上要跟以前 cpsc 同學去吃韓國燒烤, Royal Oak 跟 Kingsway intersection 上的那間. 從來沒有去吃過, 雖然就在我以前打工的補習班旁邊, 離我家只有短短的兩分鐘車程. 從來沒去過的原因是不知道從哪裡聽來, 那間店以前是死刑場, 專門吊死人用的... 還蠻有趣ㄉ... 約在那間店ㄉ人不知道是誰...

還有就是有關 Acturary 的事, 今天早上給他稍微看ㄌ一下...... 好難喔~~~

看到超想放棄ㄉ... (哭) ...

簡直不是超人根本就沒辦法當成功的 Acturarist... 要懂的東西多到不行... 下列是 http://www.beanactuary.org 網站建議在大學拿的課程:

• Finance
• Microeconomics
• Macroeconomics
• Specialized Calculus
• Specialized Linear Algebra
• Specialized Calculus-based Probability and Statistics
• Business
• Marketing
• Computer Skills - Word Process, Spreadsheets, Presentation Software, Statistical Analysis Programs, Database Manipulation, and 1~3 Programming Languages
• Communication Skills - Writing, Technical Writing, Speech, Drama (???)
• Liberal Arts background - History, Art, Political Science, Humanities
• Actuarial Science

最後那個網站還說, Actuary 就是要能 learn and assimilate a wide range of infomation... Fuck...

這是人讀的東西嗎?
怎麼看我都一點希望也沒有, 後來看到很煩就又跑去看跟電動有關的網頁ㄌ...

我是不是還是應該找跟電動有關的工作阿..........................

這個看起來要讀到死掉為止耶, 而且最慘的是我一點點把握也沒有...

好煩喔~~~

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剛剛在院子裡看到一隻剩一隻翅膀的蜜蜂沿著草地旁的走道在爬行... 真想知道它要去哪裡, 還有它的翅膀是怎麼斷掉的...?

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Complain 完, 心情稍微好ㄌ點... 基本上還是蠻 Confuse 的... Why am I torturing myself like this...?

今天終於睡久一點ㄌ, 十一點半到六點半, 剛好七個小時...
雖然醒來還是很累... 現在還是很想睡...

今晚好像有同學會要開, 開完好像要打麻將... 好久沒打ㄌ, 大概會一直放槍吧... >< ...

割草

Let's see if anyone's with me on this...

難道沒有人覺得割草是一件慘絕人寰, 泯滅人性, 天理不容的事情嗎?

今天去 Mosqulum (到底是哪裡? 好像是 X-Eaglequest, Anyways) 打球. 第一次上 6000+ 碼的球場, 剛開始還真的蠻緊張又興奮的.

The course was pretty good. It was beautiful, ok-well tended (according to randy, tho i think it's pretty good already) and the weather was all superb.

但是打了大概六七洞以後, 就開始痛苦ㄌ, 因為沒吃早餐... (Actually I have ate, but not enough), 再加上時差, 沒睡飽, 技術體力都變差, 總之, 今天打的慘不忍睹.

The final result was Randy 84, Ken 112 and I got 140. Shit... It was sooooooooooo bad. I should be at least around 130 ba? 果然沒運動還是真的有差很多... 體力-wise.

總之, 雖然打的很爽, 也打的很累. 結果好死不死, 一回到家我爸剛好在除草... 當然... 就只好換我來除了...

邊割草就邊想: 難道沒有人覺得割草是一件慘絕人寰, 泯滅人性, 天理不容的事情嗎???

可愛柔弱又美麗的小草, 每天二十四小時努力的吸收陽光, 空氣和水分; 就是為了不斷的長高, 長高.

好不容易花了好幾各星期長高的長度, 卻又被冷血的人類用排著黑煙的無血無淚的機器給腰斬. 基本上, 腰斬這件事本身就已經非常噁心ㄌ. 腰斬是古代十大最冷酷的刑罰之一, 因為人從肚子被砍一刀以後, 並不會馬上死掉, 大概要痛苦的拖著自己的胃, 大腸, 小腸, 爬行大概兩柱香的時間才會痛苦的死去.

現在這種不人道的酷刑早已廢除, 但是我們為什麼還要將我們不能忍受的刑罰加諸於無辜的小草上呢??? 他們到底犯了什麼錯??? 有人應該聽過吧, 植物也是會痛的, 即使他們沒有神經. 甚至你在踩草地的時候, 草也都是會 "尖叫" 的... 好可憐喔...

每次除草的時候都有深深的罪惡感, 好像我在作什麼大屠殺一樣... 連睡夢中也似乎可以聽見他們的慘叫...

唉...

住在溫哥華還真閒..........................................

Still jet-lagging...

Always sleepy during daytime and couldn't sleep more than 5 hours at night...

Oh well, I'm adjusting...

Going to golf course soon... a little excited ^_^

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驚人的發現!!!

我的 Blog 好像都沒有 Title 耶...

真糟糕...

本來是要去睡的ㄌ...

結果被老媽挖起來... 硬逼我吃ㄌ一碗不知道是哪些青菜綜合在一起的鬼東西後才放我回來睡覺.

太好ㄌ, 現在又睡不著ㄌ...

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回來到現在也三天ㄌ, 差不多該開始整理房間ㄌ... 好好整理房間... 或許, 明天吧.

把房間跟心情都好好整理一下...

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如果說沒有捨不得, 那肯定是個大笑話.
捨不得什麼ㄋ?

卻又好難回答...

標準答案應該是捨不得台灣一起同甘共苦的一群好朋友.

當然捨不得. 可這卻是非捨不可的, 總不能為了跟朋友出去所以該作的正事 (啥? 什麼正事?)都不作ㄌ吧?

或許真正的答案是捨不得沒有人管的生活.

講起來很矛盾.

如果我嚮往的是沒有人管的生活, 那是指自由ㄇ?

我每天還是要九點到辦公室 (ok, 我都九點半才到), 然後坐到六點才能下班 (無論我上班時都在幹麻). 這樣算是自由ㄇ? 難道週末可以玩到天亮才回家, 就算是自由ㄇ? 比起來, 每天被爸媽唸十分鐘, 可以自由的選課, 自由的決定要不要去上課, 不是更自由ㄇ?

難道其實我是捨不得她?

看起來也不像... 至少我現在搞不太清楚她在想什麼... 有一通電話好像很難過我要走, 但是其他電話卻又都還好... 讓我很想確認我在那通電話中是不是在跟同一個人說話. 回來以後打電話給她, 語氣也都蠻平淡ㄉ, 畢竟我現在只是她的一個普通朋友, 跟兩年前離開溫哥華時, 的確不可同日而語...

那應該也不是ㄌ...

所以我到底捨不得什麼?

捨不得台灣ㄇ? 好像也不是很嚴重
除ㄌ油飯以外好像也沒什麼這裡很難吃到, 我又很想吃ㄉ.
除ㄌ少年跟寶島以外好像也沒什麼漫畫這裡看不到, 我又很想看ㄉ.
我又不太 shopping 衣服跟鞋子
不可能捨不得那髒亂的房間吧 (雖然後來已經很整齊ㄌ)

還是搞不懂...

最有可能, 是上述所有原因的總合所造成的原因, 每種都捨不得一點, 積少成多...

就成ㄌ現在巨大的想念...

雖然還想到很多事要寫... 尤其是有關她的事...

不過我眼睛真的快閉上ㄌ... 七點半睡好ㄌ, 看我醒來是幾點再說吧...

努力調時差中...

說起來, 我還一直在過台灣的時間...

每天晚上都只能睡幾個小時 (等於是午覺), 白天都昏昏欲睡...

現在才晚上快七點而已, 但是我已經等於是星期六一整各晚上沒睡ㄌ (雖然如果去八八亞的話還算 ok 正常的, 反正我回家都會睡過頭)... 可是如果算台灣時間, 等於我晚上八點睡醒, 晚上十點跑去爬山爬到半夜兩點, 然後休息兩各小時, 吃完宵夜以後又跑去打 golf 到星期日早上九點...

Shit...

然後我竟然現在還醒著... 雖然已經隨時可以昏過去ㄌ...

This is amazing...

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昨天我作ㄌ什麼事? 好像除ㄌ晚上跟 Ken 出去吃飯, 然後去逛夜市以外, 就沒幹麻ㄌ, 不過溫哥華的夜市一年比一年有看頭, 一年比一年大, 還真是蠻值得去看看ㄉ.

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開學前其實好幾天都已經有約ㄌ, 星期二晚上要跟 CPSC 同學吃飯, 星期一要去 Surrey 打球, 星期三好像是要打保齡球, 星期四好像還要去一次 Grouse Grind...? 下星期一要去 PNE, 跟 Ritsu 14 的三四個女生... 看到 Ritsu 來的女生年紀越來越小... 總覺得... ㄟ... 好像在騙小女生... ㄟ... 先... 去ㄌ再說好ㄌ, 其實日本女生還蠻可愛ㄉ... 這幾天就覺得 Saori 超級好笑ㄉ... 尤其是眼睛睜大的時候... It was so funny...

Btw, she was sleeping the WHOLE DAY today. It was pretty amazing how much she can sleep...

She gave up on GG before we even hit the 1/4 mark, and after that, all she did was sleep, sleep and more sleep...

I wonder how much sleep she can get tonight.

其實我都還沒整理完我的行李, 每天又超累ㄉ, 真不知道開學以後會不會好一點...

剛剛忘ㄌ補充一點, 星期六晚上應該是歡迎 Ritsu 14 的 Party...... shit ...

怎麼會這麼忙阿...........?

It was a crazy day...

Because of the stupid Jet-Lag, I only slept 2 hours last night.

Woke up by 5. And 2 hours later, I ended up in Grouse Grind, in a rainy day.

3 km in distance, 1 km in elevation. And the worst thing is, I realized how bad my stamina is...

Everyone... and I meant EVERYONE's climbing speed is faster than me, including kids, girls, big fat guys, old woman, old man... everyone...

I blame my turtle speed to the lack of speed and the weight of the shoes.

Speaking of shoes, I really need a pair of sporty shoes now. How can I go Grouse Grind again next week and how can I go down to real golf course without an okay shoes?

Finally, I spend around 100 min. to reach the top of GG. The average is about 90, so I was pretty bad. Maybe the more I go, the better I'll become?

After get off from Grouse Mountain, Ken and Randy went basketball in ubc so I've got nothing to do but sleep in the gym.

When I woke up, I find that Ken's lip was twice as its original size and it was bleeding pretty badly. Thanx to his favourite teammate - Randy's albow.

Poor Ken couldn't eat properly afterwards. And it looks like the bruise won't recover anytime sooner than 2 weeks.

After lunch and buying medicine, we went driving range... I was doing pretty bad... as expected. Come on, I only slept 2 hours, I was dizzy, tired and too full.

Sign...

Anyways, it's 6:34 now, I just done shower and sitting here. My feet is allergic again, to what, I can not say...

It is really annoying.

Actually, I'm guessing it's because the oily fat I ate this afternoon... Just a guess...

半夜兩點半睡下去, 五點自動醒來...

Definitely Jet-Lag...

Unfortunately (or fortunately), this is the only Group Photo I've got in this Japan Trip... Yes... Doraemon at Ropongi Hill, the girl there was super kawaii, but too bad, for some reason, I was too shy to take picture of her. Oh, she was the one who took this picture for us. How happy I am with Doraemon... 

By the way...

Which street is Vancouver's official Gay Street???

Is it Denman or Davie???

Please... anyone who knows please answer me...

So far the search result over internet was pretty much a mixture of both. But I think Davie is favoured over Denman...

Some of the most notable numbers of this Japan trip:

1 Flight I've missed. It's the first one, hopefully the last.
2 Flights I was on the waiting list. Shit...
3 Average hour I've spend in Arcade
4 Different Arcades I went (Sunstreet, SF3 Tournemnt, Akihabara, 自由空間 (I was playing ps2 in there...))
5 Times I ate Katsu Don at same place... (coz it was super cheap and big)
7 Times we went for Arcade
3000+ Yen, I've spend at Arcade...

Miss Akio and Yuki tho. They were the people who I've got to say thank to. Yuki came all the way from Gifu and Akio took one day off for us. Thank you guys so very much, really~ Let's meet again soon~ Next year at Taiwan ba ^_^ If I can manage it...

Too much arcade??? I think so too... >_< ...

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The following is the summarized detail of this Trip, it was pretty boring to read this way... but anyways, just for the record...

8/19 Thursday

2:00 Start watching baseball game

4:00 Finish baseball game, taiwan lose to... eh... cuba... it was horriable.

5:00 Accidently fell asleep, haven't even start packing.

7:00 Woke up. SHIT! My plane is at 8:55

Surprisingly, packing only took me 5 min.

7:30 Get on taxi.

8:00 Stupid taxi driver making a circle beneath highway, he doesn't know how to get on the highway...

8:33 Arrived at Check-in counter, i was 3 min. late... Damn the taxi driver...

It was not entirely his fault tho, the morning traffic hour should be blamed as well. And of course, my overslept problem too.

9:00 breakfast at Burger King. Cal, Turtle, Tina all phoned and laughed at me...

10:00 ~ 13:00 Sleeping at airport

14:20 Get on plane, I was on waiting list 001.

Japan time 7:00 Get out of 成田 Airport.

9:00 Arrive Tokyo station by express train.

9:10 meet up with yuki and ben, akio already went home.

Ben was going to arcade becoz free play night, but we decided to go back to drink coz akio needs to work tomorrow.

10:30 Some drinking place close to Akio's.

Saw Akio's gf, pretty cute ne~ (Sorry ken, forgot to take pics)

12:00 Back to Akio's

8/20 Friday

1:00 Went to Convinenet Store with yuki to read comics.

2:00 Night snack. Katsu Don.

3:00 Hanging around on sky bridge.

4:00 Fell Asleep.

10:00 Woke up.

10:30 Leave Akio's

11:00 築地, had the best sushi I've ever had in my life, pretty expansive tho (500 yen 1 piece). The sushi's here is... simply the best, even not the expansive ones.

14:00 涉谷高島屋, took too long to get here. For turtle's le nereides... Bought an earring I thought he doesn't has... but...

16:00 Too tired already, went home. Ben went arcade, preparing for his next-day tournment.

17:30 Back to Akio's, Canada vs. Japan, so bad game for canada, what the hell? Homeruns flying everywhere.

19:00 Fell asleep.

20:30 Woke up. Play soccor game with Yuki.

22:00 Meet Akio, bought snacks and drinks.

23:30 Ben came back. We were drinking already.

8/21 Saturday

3:00 Sleep

10:00 Wake up

11:00 Brunch...

13:00 Sunshine street. Basically... shopping at 無印良品, Toys R'us...

16:00 Arcade...

17:00 Went for Ben's Tournment, akio and yuki left at home. We are suppose to meet later at 新宿

18:00 Arrived at the arcade...

19:00 Tournment start... Ben lost right away, and the one who beat him lost to another guy right away. The the guy who beat the one who beat ben was #3, I think.

It was really really exciting to watch all these super good players to perform all the moves you only get to see over the internet...

20:00 Ben decide to stay, we both forgot to bring akio and yuki's phone number, so i went straight home, hoping to catch them.

21:00 Nobody at home. Shit.

21:30 Finished Dinner, bought beers and snacks. Waiting at Lobby.

22:30 Finally Akio and yuki came back, they were waiting for us at 新宿... sorry guys.

8/22 Sunday

1:00 Finally Ben came back. I was a little worried.

4:00 Sleep. Learned about "Degree of separation" before sleep.

11:00 Wake up.

11:30 Eat 大阪燒, or whatever they call them. Pretty interesting food. I wonder why Taiwan don't have it. It's easy to open a shop like this, I think.

13:00 自由空間, some entertainment compact, they have High speed internet, ps2, MTV, TV, table tennis, comics, drinks, pools, darts... etc. Pretty nice place to hang around with friends if got nothing to do.

17:00 Akihabara (電器街)...

17:30 Ended up in Arcade...

I remembered when we get out of Arcade, it was raining pretty badly. So we decided to go home and eat dinner around there.

21:00 Dinner. It was Ben's treat.

21:30 Arcade again.

22:30 Akio went home first, Ben, me and yuki ended up at roulette table, and yuki was damn lucky.

8/23 Monday

0:00 Left arcade coz they closed.

0:30 Home, deciding what to do today.

5:00 was playing guessing game..., fell asleep at dawn.

11:00 Breakfast, it was ramen. Akio needs to study, so he went home after ramen.

11:30 Arcade... to finish the coins we had the day before.

12:30 Tokyo. 雷門 Temple. Basically... shopping and site-seeing.

We bought two super aho headband and was wearing it all the time. Yuki got really pissed at us.

16:00 六本目 Hill, cool Spider statue.

16:30 Akio meet us.

17:00 Took photo with Doraemon. And the doraemon girl was SUPER CUTE!!!

18:30 新宿

19:00 Eating dumpling at some super expansive place... it was pretty good if you don't consider the price...

20:30 We were still hungry, so eat Akio and I had MacDonald.

21:30 Dinner at Katsu don again.

22:00 Arcade...............

23:30 Bought drinks and snacks again.

8/24 Tuesday.

5:30 Sleep. We were chatting all night long.

7:30 Woke up. Left Akio's.

8:20 Tokyo Station

8:30 Ben left on express to airport.

8:45 Breakfast at tokyo station, not bad, still expansive...

9:20 Some cafe at tokyo station...

10:10 Akio left, me and yuki heading airport.

10:40 Got the news that Ben's 9:30 plane was cancelled, he's waiting for me at airport.

12:0 Goodbye to Yuki, get into airport

13:00 Found Ben, he got on 14:20's plane to Taiwan.

13:45 Because I didn't catch the plane I was suppose to catch on the way to japan. So the stupid computer shows that I did NOT come to japan. So I ended up on WAITING LIST AGAIN!!!!!!

Feel so gan...

14:20 Finally I got the sit. It was my first commercial seating.

16:20 Left japan.

Taiwan time 20:00 Arrive airport, due to the typhoon, we were the only aircraft landed

20:30 Ben was no where to be seen, he was suppose to be waiting for me at airport.

21:00 I found out Ben ended up in Hong Kong, so I went home. On the way home, the storm was... incredible... I was more scared on the taxi then I was on the airplane.

22:00 Safely got home.

決定想到什麼寫什麼...

I just changed IE's homepage from www.yahoo.com.tw back to www.yahoo.com

Trying to fit back to vancouver's life while my heart still lingers in taipei...

Should I finish tokyo trip first... or clean up my room first...

eh...

probably clean up my room first...

Just came back yesterday, been unconscious since, feel a little better now after internet is finally back.

so many things to do... and so little time...

補充一點, because I'm so damn lucky, 我還是蠻喜歡颱風ㄉ...

They are cute. 雖然造成大家許多麻煩和生命財產的損失, 但我們本來就是大自然的一部分, 沒什麼好抱怨的吧..?

before finishing up the japan trip blog, i gotta say this:

I'm a lucky ass.

Always.

Take the last day of japan trip for example. Ben took the flight at 14:00 but ended up in HK. I took the flight at 16:00 and luckily come back to taipei without any delay. ^_^

Things that looks bad, usually, turns out to be okay good.

Met her was the best thing that ever happened to me. And loss her was the worst thing that ever happened to me, too. I wonder if that, will also, turns out to be a good thing...

Just... simply... wondering...

The 2 big typhoon are still hugging taiwan, I wonder if Ben can come back today.

I also wonder if I can leave on 26th without any delay... I've had enough delays at airports... enough is... enough...

Ken asked me to go to vancouver island with him for a couple days after I go back. Sounds like a really good plan to me. Although I really want to rest, but considering that Randy and him are both leaving soon, I guess it'll be a good idea to have another trip together.

I wonder what would mom says tho...

I wonder a lotta things this morning. 6:34

weird, i always think that i'm missing something...

but the keyboard here is really really bad.

otherwise i'll have a lot to say.

I miss rola a lot. It's v-day today. I wonder what she's doing, altho it's already entirely none of my business now...

This ... is so weird... and sux.. and i guess i deserved it.

If it's meant to be, it's meant to be.

Probably not meant to be. Give up ba.

btw, i eat too much in japan

and i miss my friends in taiwan, and i miss her and my gc and computer.

just a couple days away, and i miss them dearly already.

i have no clue how i'm going to take all the missing when i go back to van...

well... at least i still got computer and gc... i guess that's... not entirely bad... right?

I am sitting in one of Tokyo's famous entertainment compounds right now.

There are pools, darts, table tennis, internet, ps2 to play... pretty awesome place...

The thing is, I have no clue why I'm doing all the things I can be doing elsewhere since I've came all the way from Taiwan....... Interesting...

e... do... i gotta write down what have i been doing in japan, otherwise i'll forget soon.

8/19 First Day...

Shit... I was watching baseball game at night, after taiwan lose, feel so sad... and fell asleep.

When I woke up, it's 7:00 already... and then I was, of course, panicing...

After the stupid taxi driver making circle for 10 mins, i was 3 min. late before the counter close.

So... yeah, I missed the flight....

First time ever, in my life... hopefully the last time as well... coz it was not something very nice to remember with.

Well, i just realized that i can't blog well right now...

quit here and blog later then...

What did I do today?

Can't remember clearly now...

Last 18 days pass so fast. Like a wonderful dream. Sadly, I gotta wake up now.

4:02 in the morning. I have 90 mins before leaving home.

Well... time to play...

But somehow, I'm not excited at all...

難怪我媽叫我絕對不要買鐵蛋...

我一口氣就把整包吃掉ㄌ... 自制力 = 0

昨天淡水... 很好玩喔, 我會很想念淡水ㄉ~~~

去東京的購物清單...

1. 可樂
2. Rakool TOUCH 鎮痛消炎劑
3. 民信片
4. 皮卡丘
5. 皮卡丘
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還有誰要我幫忙買東西的嗎?

反正閒著...

一直不想提起要回去的事. 還剩三天...

今天... 晚上見到 Randy 跟 (終於) Wesley. ^_^

He's a pretty nice and funny guy, even in person.

每次都是講 MSN 的人突然出現在面前還蠻有趣ㄉ. 不過今天會不會太熱一點, 總以為我已經習慣ㄌ... 結果還是沒有, 今天出去汗還是狂流...

半夜 1:13 分, 還在看棒賽. 六局下半, 中華 0:3 落後.

大概已經有八個人問過我ㄌ, 中華對加拿大我挺誰. 看著電視, 注意到桌上很巧的放著我的兩本護照. 雙重國籍... 還蠻有趣ㄉ... 那我到底該挺誰?

按照先來後到的順序, 當然是應該挺中華隊囉... 雖然戰績看起來實在是...

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太複雜的事情, 還是不要去想好ㄌ, 浪費腦細胞..

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還剩三天ㄋ... 還有哪些事該作...?

應該去買個大行李箱...
應該去境管局蓋章...
應該去洗牙...
應該去看皮膚科...
應該找 Julian...
應該去表哥家...
應該去看人體展...
應該整理電腦跟家...

呼~~~~~

真想知道三天後能完成哪些事... ^_^

Playing at one of the most beautiful beach in Taiwan... 

Small turtle making burning by fire~~~ 

Fireworks at southmost Taiwan ^_^ 

Cooking on nature fire~~~ 

Signature while Jeremy sleeping ^_^ 

Final Breakfast... 

And Jeremy left... 

This must be a big joke.

新豐
湖口
富剛
楊梅
埔心
中壢
內壢
桃園
鶯歌
山佳
樹林

我到台北車站的時候大概是 5:30.

到家剛好 8:41...

頭一次睡超過桃園...

seems like i'm a little sick now... running nose, burning throat and stuff...

it's 4:30 in the morning and i don't know why i wake up so early. I guess my time has been all messed up since vacation start.

Just had a really weird dream about I was on the plane back to vancouver and realized I've left my canadian passport at home...

I guess that's what wakes me up...

Wednesday night we went party at Tina's, thursday I slacked.

Today I gotta get things done. I forgot to call her back... actually I fell asleep... grr... anyways.

For some reason, I was reading the e-mails she wrote to me when I was back in Viet. They looked strangly distant to me nowadays. Seems like letters from last life.

Lack of self-confidence, it seems, is one of my biggest problems. When we were on a break, if only I have act more mature, maybe things won't turn out this bad. But I was all alone... sign ...

When people ask me now why did I let her go, I always answer becoz she's always free to try out. Sounds like I'm very mature, but that's not what it seems like in the letter. I don't have any letter that I've sent to her, but according to her reply, it sounds like I was pretty screwed. Nagging and threatening her about breaking-up all the time. Damn, that must be really annoying. If I were her, I wouldn't want to be with a childish nagging kid as well.

No wonder we broke up.

被打碎的心中
想得到的並非幸福

Yahoo! Auction

Shit... not funny at all...

反正都講電話講到早上五點ㄌ... 乾脆把該做的事一併處理...

本來是想等到照片出來再動筆的, 不過想想還是趁記憶尚未退色之前, 趕快把這次瘋狂的假期紀錄下來.

五年, 十年以後如果能再看到, 應該會很感動吧. 照片, 就之後再補吧.

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8/6 星期五, 晴

忘了星期四在幹麻了, 反正星期五睡到快中午. 起床以後跟小龜 MSN 幾句, 就跑出去匯錢給旅社 (2000). 另外也買了本墾丁功略 (88) ... 打算下午好好計畫接下來兩天的行程. 回家以後壞消息接踵而至, 先是最舒服的遊覽車 "阿囉哈" 已完全售罄 (這個字怎麼唸?), 然後就是綈娜唉唉叫說這次都沒有女生去... 後面那件事我雖然一點忙也幫不上, 不過還是安慰了她兩句, 講什麼倒也不是記得很清楚, 反正最後還是讓她自己決定囉. 畢竟, 如果我一個男生要跟四個女生出去玩, 我大概也會考慮好一陣子吧...? (... 算ㄌ, 吐自己槽還蠻蠢的).

行程大略排出來之後 (好像有寫在之前的日記中), 我又跑出去匯款給車行 (2000). 跟大家約十一點在台北車站北門對面的停車場見面, 我一直摸到晚上九點還在看 Jojo..., 因為我已經看好火車時刻表, 所以不用等車, 東摸西摸依依不捨的又加了兩個 Blog 到十點半才出門. 出門前有打給她啦, 不過她好像心情不是很好, 我... 不知道有沒有受到影響, 多多少少一點點吧...? 這是題外話, 暫且表過.

忘了我在火車上幹什麼傻事, 多半是打電動吧? (想起來了, 我在火車上傳簡訊回去給她...) 跑了一整天, 大概頭也暈暈的, 如果不打電動可能醒來又到松山去ㄌ (我是真的有醬想). 還好, 台北車站我還有記得下車.

到約定地點後就開始罵人了, 每次跟這些混蛋約都要遲到是怎樣? 我已經遲到十五分鐘了, 還一個人影都沒看到. 無奈. 只好坐在停車場外的矮鐵架上打手機裡的無聊電動. 打打打到十一點半終於小龜打電話過來, 正要開罵卻被反罵回來, 說他們早就在客運站前面等我, 見鬼了, 他們這次竟然準時到, 還等我. 奇妙~~~

遇到小龜還說想我到的時候會打電話給他們, 最好是, 你們紀錄這麼差, 我肯定是想說我最先到的, 哪會打去問你們到了沒阿, 多半是在騎車吧 (當時我是醬想啦).

遇到凱文, tina, 小龜的時候他們正大包小包的坐在路邊攤, 桌上屍橫片野告訴我他們已經都吃過宵夜ㄌ, 坐下剛開始跟小龜哈啦, 凱文跟 tina 就跑去買飲料ㄌ. 記得我點了個粽子 (30), 裡面的餡還真少.

8/7 星期六, 晴偶雨

吃完粽子後, 小龜開始唉唉叫說他的背又在痛了, 只好跑到康是美 (這名字還真土) 買膏藥來貼. 我好像也順手買了相機用的電池 (120), 因為充電電池忘記充電, 還是買了保險一點.

上統聯客運 (~400) 的時候約莫是零點十分吧, 我跟小龜坐在靠後門最近的位置, 凱文 tina 則坐在我們後面. 本來是要打 gba 的, 結果車子一發動燈就都熄ㄌ, 實在應該帶 gba-sp 來的... 氣死我...

在車上搖搖晃晃, 很想聊天, 可是想到今天還有一整天要過, 只好強迫自己睡覺. 座位是不小, 可是實在很不符合人體工學, 設計這些座位的實在該砍頭, 躺也不是, 縮起來也不是, 腳也沒辦法伸直. tina 比較小隻, 又上了一天班, 倒是很快就睡著ㄌ, 我大概在上面翻滾了半個小時才睡著, 中間還不斷的起來翻滾, 快變成多爾滾... (恩, 很冷). 聽說小龜跟凱文在車上完全沒睡. 不知道是我應該佩服他們還是他們應該佩服我... 總之, 到高雄火車站的時候已經四點多ㄌ, 比預計時間還早大概一兩個小時.

說是送到高雄火車站, 其實也沒有, 大概還隔了兩條街左右. 找到火車站以後我們就不知道要怎麼辦了. 因為糯米要到八點才出現, 小龜跟凱文又都沒睡, 實在很想找各地方休息一下. 跑去 7-11 一問發現令人訝異的事實, 堂堂高雄火車站附近竟然一間網咖跟 KTV (這些是我們先想到的地方) 都沒有. 這是什麼鳥地方? 我還以為台灣網咖跟屁一樣多, 結果竟然附近走的到的地方一間也沒有.

最後我們只好往 24 小時的咖啡廳跑. 雖然沒有網咖, 不過看到咖啡廳的價目表還是讓我嚇一跳. 雖然不怎麼高級, 不過大概也快要有台北 Starbucks 等級的咖啡廳, 裡面賣的東西竟然價格不到台北一半... 台北的咖啡真是值錢..., 還好我不太喝咖啡.

大概是五層樓的咖啡廳吧, 躲到這裡等天亮的人還真不少, 我們從二樓走到四樓竟然高朋滿座, 都找不到四個人的座位 (兩人座倒還有), 晚上四點半耶, 你們全都不用睡覺是怎樣? 爬到五樓, 又是另一種景象... 一個人都沒有, 而且所有椅子都倒放在桌上, 看起來就像是在清掃的樣. 不過燈光充足, 冷氣音樂也都開著, 我就很白爛的自動把椅子拉到地上, 讓大家坐下來休息... 當然, 沒坐多久 (大概三十分鐘), 就被服務生趕到樓下去了. 他應該蠻驚訝的吧, 怎麼會有這麼莫名其妙的客人...

凱文應該是蠻累的, 只要一坐下, 他的頭就會掉到桌上, 然後就沒聲音了. 神奇的小龜竟然還沒睡, 還陪我跟 tina 玩牌. 一開始玩 Big 2, 後來變成 99 真心話大冒險, 不知道為什麼小龜跟我狂輸, 一直被套一些很私人的問題出來, 我們講話又很大聲, 最後不但凱文都被吵醒加入, 連隔壁桌的都在偷聽我們講話. 基本上這間店禁止玩牌, 不過不知道為什麼沒人來阻止我們, 大概是對話太有趣ㄌ...

好不容易熬到八點糯米終於打電話來, 約我們在高雄火車站的麥當勞見面. 又等了他大概半個小時才出現, 他真是迷路大王. 我吃的好像是蛋堡 (20) 跟薯餅 (20).

本來是要作客運下去, 在車上可以補眠, 可是高雄火車站的運將完全不放過我們, 一個接一個來問, 最後我們坐上一部 11 人座的小客車 (250) 直衝墾丁~~~ 在車上還是沒辦法好好睡, 睡著的好像只有 tina 跟凱文, 小龜在前面一直跟糯米打屁, 我坐在後座... 倒是睡不著... 兩個人壓在我身上大概多少有點關聯...

又過大約一個半小時, 客車就停在我們訂好的金城別館附近, 那時才十點多而已, 進去一問, 竟然要 12 點才能讓我們 Check-in, 不過行李可以先借放倒是省下點麻煩. 後來才知道, 墾丁每間旅館幾乎都是萬能的, 都能住, 租車, 安排水上行程... 像我們這樣住一間, 租車一間, 水上行程又另一間的大概多少還是有點浪費時間.

走到租車店, 本來是跟他訂 50cc 兩部, 125cc 兩部, 可是沒駕照的凱文跟糯米堅持要騎 125, 沒辦法, 最後只好牽走四部 125.

離 Check in 還有一個半小時, 行程稍微有點亂掉 (原以為一到就可以 Check in), 結果只好騎車到處晃晃. 先到 7-11 讓糯米嗑個便當, 順便我們幾個也灌下五隻啤酒 (之後好像去哪裡之前都先灌幾隻才走... 原因不明). 後來不知道誰提議 (大概是我), 我們就騎車到南灣去看看情況, 想說反正晃一下就回來了. 喝完酒, 外面又熱, 我們四個男生就把衣服全脫ㄌ, 反正沒人認識我們~~~ 到南灣途中糯米還搞失蹤, 他真的... 少一跟筋... 害我們頂著艷陽等了他大概十分鐘左右 (可能不只).

南灣... 不是一個美字可以形容. 海天一色, 浪花滔滔, 乾淨的海灘讓我們啤酒罐也都不好意思亂丟. 印象中已經好久好久沒來過這麼像海灘的海灘了. 本來只是要走走, 因為時間無多, 結果幾個男生還是開始瞎起鬨, 摔來摔去最後全都摔到海裡面, 當然, 衣服褲子也全都濕ㄌ... 濕掉的衣服問題並不大, 炎熱的陽光五分鐘左右就可以搞定這個問題, 比較麻煩是身上的砂礫跟?, 還是非得沖水才能洗乾淨. 其實在南灣沒玩多久, 是我們自己找麻煩, 根本不應該入水的, 不過, 哈哈, 爽就好~~

話說回來, 因為之後就要去浮潛, 所以回到旅社其實也不用沖澡的, 不過我們幾個不知道在想什麼, 還是輪流洗澡完才出門. 負責我們浮潛的旅店叫海中天, 地圖上看起來很遠, 其實就在我們旅社對面而已. 本來連騎水上摩托車 850, 結果老闆跟我們說摩托車不好玩, 叫我們玩快艇, 香蕉船跟浮潛就好 (~450).

浮潛那套衣服還真是... 穿起來有夠熱的, 恨不得自己馬上泡在水裡. 汗如雨下的滋味真的很難受, 快要脫水ㄌ. 大概是我比較沒有 Sense 吧, 浮潛跟我想像中差好多... 我還以為是可以潛下去一點... 然後用的是可以過濾空氣的吸管... (果然想太多) ...

雖然跟本人幻想有出入, 不過, 還是漂亮的沒話講, 閃耀著透入海面搖擺不定日光的珊瑚礁, 穿梭其間五顏六色, 大大小小的魚群. 剛開始一看到魚還會緊張的叫前後的人看, 後來發現根本目不暇給. 自己看都快要沒時間, 那種感覺很有趣, 就像平常只能在電視上 (都市兒童...) 看到的景象突然擺在你眼前, 而且伸手可及. 超感動的~~~~~~

快艇根本是騙人的, 只是坐在一艘拉著香蕉船的快艇罷ㄌ, 並沒有什麼特別的. 倒是香蕉船, 如果能多坐兩次, 應該還蠻好玩ㄉ. 說是香蕉船, 其實叫香腸熱狗船會更像一點. 就是一條熱狗形狀的氣墊船, 上面有六條讓乘客拉住的橡皮, 六個人排成一列跨坐在上面以後, 前面的快艇就開始拉船, 拉幾圈以後快艇就會大轉彎把上面的乘客摔下來.

好玩的地方是, 我們就是不讓他摔. 第一次坐還沒經驗就算ㄌ, 轉兩個彎就不頂ㄌ. 第二次上去倒是撐ㄌ很久, 從頭到尾就聽到坐最前面的糯米一直喊, 左邊左邊, 右邊右邊!!!! 後來船長 (or whatever), 用大絕招, 來個連續 S 型的大轉彎才把我們翻下去. 假動作... 太... cheap 了~~~

跳下船後繼續浮潛, 這次自己游就更有趣ㄌ, 幾乎都是追著魚在跑. 這麼美麗的海洋... 除了感動以外, 還是感動... 直到上岸以後小龜還一直吵要回去, 一直吵到第二天早上為止, 吵死ㄌ.

回到旅館, 休息, 又洗澡, 我總共才帶三套衣服, 已經剩一套了... 躺ㄌ半天, 實在已經很累了, 可是今天才過一半而已~~~~~~~ 下一站是小灣. 小灣就沒有南灣那麼有趣ㄌ, 沙灘石頭都比較硬, 風景也略遜了點, 我們主要是去找 Jason 的朋友, 好像有 Shawn, Eric.. 還有其他... 打招呼的成分居多吧, 大部分也都是我們自己在玩. 在小灣最難忘的, 就是下了一場太陽雨, 看著無數雨滴落在海面, 隨著浪潮起伏, 不是三言兩語能形容的...

一直玩到天黑被趕上岸為止.

本來是要直接回旅館再洗一次澡, 不過凱文還是糯米被旅館對面的牛排店香味吸過去, 最後一人吃ㄌ一份厚片牛排 (130), 才乖乖回旅館換衣服. 先回去的是 Tina 跟凱文, 我跟小龜糯米則是趁他們先洗的時候去買ㄌ烤魷魚 (80 x 2) 跟啤酒...

休息ㄌ大概一個小時, 再出發去墾丁路掃街. 其實大概就是一直吃吃吃, 吃完芒果冰 (80) 再吃魚蛋 (30), 然後玩射飛鏢, 晃來晃去~~~ 小龜瞄準一隻蜘蛛人的布娃娃, 結果竟然很賽的射中蜘蛛人上面的 Winnie the Poo...

大概逛ㄌ一下, 其實大家也都吃不下ㄌ, 我們就前往夜遊的第一個地點, 鵝鸞鼻. 騎車過去大概十五分鐘吧. 沿路又買ㄌ啤酒跟金剛仙女棒... 台灣最南端的燈塔, 海風跟星光, 真是下酒的好料. 坐在燈塔下, 除了偶爾閃過的塔光, 就是一整片灑下的星光. 躺在那裡看著似乎伸手可及的星星, 數著一顆顆消逝的流星... 有如夢境般的夜晚... (如果沒有蚊子咬的我滿手滿腳的話...)

8/8 星期日, 晴

回到旅社, 又吃了東山雞頭 (200), 烤小鳥 (80 x 2) 跟椰子汁 (50 x 2). 除了椰子以外, 其他都超好吃的. 下一站是東門出火... 這是我堅持要去的地方.

我想像中... 是一片荒無的土地上有無數大大小小的石塊, 然後石塊中會有火光飄來飄去.... 結果... 我們看到的是一圈用木杵圍成大概一個水池大小的土地, 然後火真的不斷從石縫中燒出來. 雖然小了點, 不過騎了快二十分鐘的車還是蠻值得的. 小龜看到火就整個人 High 起來, 也不知道是怎樣, 一直在火圈裡面耍寶. 一下用火點煙, 一下把要烤來吃的爆米花整盤摔出去. 最後還跳火. 笑死我們ㄌ. 說真的, 那還真是奇景, 為什麼其他地方都沒有看過ㄋ???

終於回到旅館, 晚上兩點半. 大家都差不多動不了了... 糯米一倒下去就睡, 平常正常作息習慣ㄌ, 能撐到兩點還真難為他ㄌ. 當然, 我們還是不會放過他, 麥克筆馬上拿出來就開始在他身上簽名照相 ^_^. 等照片出來我再貼上去~~~

第二天大概是睡到八九點吧, 眼睛一張開就看見糯米來勢洶洶, 拿著麥克筆向我走來, 小龜在我旁邊已經被畫的很可愛ㄌ ^_^ 乳頭上被畫了火影的符號, 他自己看了三次才發現, 超爆笑ㄉ~~~

鬧ㄌ一個早上, 決定要去海洋博物館浪費掉最後半天 (糯米兩點就應該閃ㄌ). 十點 Check out, 吃完早餐後, 我們就騎車直衝海洋博物館. 結果, 不知道是衝太快還是怎樣, 在某路口找路的時候, 糯米竟然發現他的手機不見啦!!!

沒辦法, 我們只好沿路找回去. 頂著 36 度的艷陽, 慢慢的騎車逆向找手機還真是個難得的經驗. 倒著騎ㄌ大概五到十公里, 都已經快放棄ㄌ. 本來嘛, 手機從時速五六十以上的機車上掉下來, 還能完整無缺找到的機會有多少? 我們也只是盡力而已.

說真的, 如果掉的是我的手機, 可能早就放棄ㄌ.

不過ㄋ, 哈哈哈, 真應該讓我媽看看那天我的表現, 她老是罵我要找什麼都找不到. 當我們到最後十字路口分頭找手機的時候, 就這麼賽給我找到了~~~~~~~ 當時可是高興的連機車都來不及停, 摔到一邊就跳下車把手機抓起來!!! 然後在路邊大吼大叫, 還好沒有人聽到 ^_^ 用手機把大家叫回來, 真是我今年作過最光榮的一件事. 受不了~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

這樣折騰了一翻, 海博館也不用去ㄌ, 最後決定再回到我們剛到墾丁看過最美麗, 卻沒有好好玩的南灣再去給她回味一下. 南灣... 仍然是一樣的美麗. 這次有準備就租ㄌ陽傘 (200), 然後下水摔角, 沖浪, 騎馬打仗, 一直玩到下午一點半. 肩膀跟臉就是這時候曬傷ㄉ... 現在還在痛... 快樂, 是要付出代價ㄉ.

最後發生一些鳥事, 糯米訂的車竟然跟我們說冷氣壞掉ㄌ, 拜託, 三十幾度耶, 冷氣壞掉半價我們也不願意坐. 後來拖拖拉拉臨時找了一台 March (250), 才五個人擠一台車三點多衝回高雄. 等車的時候又買ㄌ雞肉飯 (50).

假期到這個時候也接近尾聲ㄌ, 該玩的雖然沒有全部玩到, 不過, 這次還真的是因為都跟很好的朋友去, 才能好玩到這樣. 這是... 無可取代的...

在回程上, 糯米話很少... 又不捨ㄌ吧... 大家也都一樣.

最後一件鳥事, 就是在高雄火車站被騙說什麼尊龍 (600) 跟阿囉哈一樣好, 結果坐上去還是什麼東西都壞掉. 本來預計十二點以前到台北火車站我還可以趕末班車回來, 結果到新莊已經快一點ㄌ. 最後我是在新莊下車, 坐小黃回家ㄉ...

終於... 天下沒有不散的筵席... 就這樣, 墾丁剩下美好的回憶, 在我們所有人的心中.

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後記: 糯米在高雄車站離開後還打電話回來跟我們說謝謝. 當時第一個反應就是 "謝屁阿". 不過, 現在我也要跟大家說謝謝. 尤其是小龜... 如果不是他大力半強迫的拉我出去, 照我的個性可能也是懶的動, 在家裡躺過兩天吧. 可以了解糯米的心情... 謝謝大家, 糯米, 凱文, Tina, 跟小龜... 這是我回台灣一年多玩的最最過癮的一次. 也真的好久沒這麼開心ㄌ. 謝謝大家......

事情是這樣的.

今天我肩膀痛了一整天. 除了躺在床上以外, 還是躺在床上. 放假到現在, 首次體會到不用上班是多麼美好的事情. 奇妙ㄌ......

沒剩幾天, 時間要好好安排ㄌ. 最重要的是有些朋友還是要見個面吧.

打算明天找 Julian, 星期四找 Jake, if possible.

還有景龍, 如果有空的話, 也應該出來一下.

星期日有約 Tony 跟 Randy, 應該晚飯就是這樣打發掉ㄌ.

還有該作的事, 像是電話, 網路, 健保, 該切的也趕快去切一切吧.

接下來幾天, 應該很閒, 也很忙.

在想有關資格的事...

沒資格... 是什麼意思...?

算ㄌ, 去車上想好ㄌ

出門囉~~~~~~~~~~~

21:30

檢查好幾次, 應該沒有忘記帶的東西ㄌ吧 (還有我也認ㄌ).

那就... 好好玩吧... (不然還能怎樣?).

21:00 Start Packing.

So far, the plan is:

First Day:
12:20 bus to 高雄
7:00 bus to 墾丁
11:00 Pick up scooter
2:00 浮潛, 香蕉船, 快艇, 水上摩托車
6:00 逛街
9:00 Dinner
12:00 夜遊

2nd Day:

Beach --> Go home.

The board is set. Pieces should start moving.

GOGOGO!!!

說起來, 放假以後倒也比較沒有時間想東想西的.

上班的時候腦袋空空, 就比較容易胡思亂想.

至少, 上下班通車 3 小時的時間就夠我想一大堆有的沒的了.

昨晚有人特地留了地瓜給我吃... 謝謝...

週末要去墾丁, 其實就這樣突然下去, 還蠻有意思的. 下午我會好好的計畫行程, 現在應該先去吃點東西吧...?

Getting Excited!

好餓喔..

放假第四天, 一早醒來跟已經約三四個禮拜的同學去錢櫃唱歌. 不知不覺四個小時就過去了.

回到家下午三點. 鬼混到五點, 睡到七點.

水喔.

聽說糯米明天有可能回來. 真好. 這是今天到此為止發生最好的事情. 即使僅是有可能而已.

她說墾丁 Ok. 應該是下週末會去吧. 看起來.

最近老是在讀一些難過的書, 聽一些難過的歌, 作一些難過的事. 什麼時候可以, 逃走呢?

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愛是很簡單的

難的是

要把它留住

放假第三天~

果然, 坐在電腦前的時間跟 blog 的數量是成正比的...

昨天小龜跑來 Party... ㄟ... 反正就是一樣的事情, Soul Calibur, 數字拳... 十二支...

...

今天下午竟然跟小龜 + 凱文跑到大湖公園去游泳, 還蠻神ㄉ... 不過那間真的蠻便宜的, 下次想不開還可以再來去走走~

發現我每天很難跟著計畫走 (還是不要計畫算ㄌ).

本來今天是要跟 Claire 去看電影, 結果 Claire 不舒服, 所以... 就變成游泳... (會不會差太多)

游泳完吃蒸餃, 吃完正在想要怎麼回家, 她就打來, 人在 ATT, 剛好凱文要載我到國父紀念館, 下車以後我就走過去找她. She's still as stunningly beautiful as always...... oh, well...

Take her home, after shopping. For some reason, she seems tired. And no motivation to shop,... that's a first.......

Then I asked Jamie to pick me up and take me home, for that I have to hand him daphy's notebook.

That's probably the longest I've ever talk to Jamie...

By the way, don't buy any new BMW or Mercedes in Taiwan. They are fake...

That's... what I've learned from him today...

Taiwan dealer always (eh... or sometimes), buy 2nd-hand cars and they fix the dashboard and repair the car to make it look like new, and then sell it like new (of course).

That's... well... that's that...

其實在台灣買的起那些新車的人也不在乎一點修車的冤枉錢吧, 這倒是另一件事ㄌ.

總之, 今天雖然好累好累, 卻是很充實的一天~ (每天都繼續這樣充實下去吧~~~)

p.s. 小龜的網路還沒修好~

This... shall be my last blog done at my office (where I did most of my previous blogs).

I started my blog at this very desk. And so far, probably 95% of my blogs are from this desk as well.

I've chatted with so many people from here.

I'll miss this beautiful 19" HP OEM Monitor...

Well... that's the end.

Nothing worthwhile to celebrate.

This serves merely as the last of my footprint at HP, for now, or forever.

Goodbye, HP.

早上才被我媽唸說都不打電話給她...

現在早上五點... 打去說我想念她想到睡不著... 大概會被罵吧...?

for so long i haven't talk to a girl till five in th morning...

that's... something...

can't even remember when was the last time doing this...?

oh

little turtle's internet is down, for those who wonders (probablly none)...

對ㄌ, 我最喜歡的多拉A夢內褲破掉ㄌ...

雖然很不捨, 但大概還是得丟ㄌ.

再見, 多拉A夢~

睡到 8:30...

是不是應該出去走走...?

勉強算是放假第一天

仔細看看剩下的日子並不多ㄌ, 要好好把握時間.

讓我看看今天到現在為止幹了什麼好事:

10:00~10:30 媽媽叫我起床, 很驚訝為什麼沒去上班, 跟她解釋了半天

10:30~3:00 看漫畫, 上 msn 打屁

3:00~5:00 出去吃滷肉飯, 油雞飯, 牛肉湯麵, 買我妹的電腦包包, 花ㄌ一千五買到一個爛包包... (sorry daphne)

充實的一天

晚上要幹麻ㄋ?

還沒睡著

已經下午三點... 過去 27 個小時我只睡了一個多小時.

今天本來是不應該哭的, 以為我們已經都儘量避開這種感傷的話題, 結果最後在天成飯店門口, 開往台南的接駁客運前, 來往的人群中, 還沒說再見, 淚水就已很不爭氣的出來ㄌ.

(現在邊寫都還在邊掉淚是怎樣?)

最後並沒有說太多話, 該補充的, 已經沒有了.

前天晚上最誇張的應該也是我們三個. 其實還真沒禮貌, 在一群熟跟不熟跟第一次見面的朋友前, 三個就打成一團了.

打打哭哭停停.

並不是被打到哭的, 因為不管捶的再大力, 最痛的還是... 心裡

(已經放棄阻止眼淚了)

並不是生離死別阿



只是, 未來誰能預料? 誰知道我下次回來的時候, 又會怎麼樣?

(自己坐在這裡哭的希哩花拉還蠻蠢的)

好難過, 好難過

自己都不知道在難過什麼

也不過就是一個能一起幹蠢事, 能交心, 能談天說地, 能信賴, 能兩個人喝酒喝到吐, 能一起哭, 能一起笑, 能一起難過, 能一起快樂, 能一起... 的朋友離開了.

(幹!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 我真的不想再哭ㄌ, 哭給誰看阿!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

但這種朋友, 一輩子, 又能遇到幾個?

一個都嫌多了吧??

真的

一個都太多了...



昨天我們三個互相嗆聲了整晚, 想說或許離開的時候會比較不感傷 (媽的你們把我罵的一無是處是怎樣?)... 結果並沒有幫助......

Jeremy 在車上揮手趕我們走的時候, 真的有衝動要衝上車再捶他兩拳. 轉頭走沒幾步, 猶豫了一下, 想說再回去看他一眼也好. 還好. 他把窗簾拉上了.

後來死龜頭又說了一些話, 內容我已經不太記得, 只知道十幾天後我可能要有斷手斷腳的覺悟...



好感謝. 我回台灣的時間並不長. 或許我離開很久很久以後, 唯一會掛念的, 就只有你們了.

我不知道. 這麼多, 這麼重的友情, 我扛不扛的下來, 我還不還的起.

(哭死算ㄌ, 跟她分手大概都沒哭這麼久)



拖著蹣跚的腳步, 走進熟悉的台北車站. 收到 Jeremy 的簡訊 "...你一定要他媽的給我死回來".

說真的, 我沒辦法保證, 未來的事太難預料. 昨天在看龜頭電腦裡去年的照片 (都沒有我就是了, 死龜), 真的感觸很多. 一年前, 有誰會想到?

時間真的是很奇妙的東西

它不能改變的只有一件事, 這是我唯一能保證的一件事, 不管未來怎樣, 我永遠永遠不會忘記你們, 不會忘記 Jeremy, 小龜, 凱文, John, Jim, Michael........ 得失憶症不在此限. (哭完開始搞笑了)



在月台等火車的時候 (快寫完了, 忍耐一下), 很習慣的打電話給她, 分手這麼久, 我還是在某種程度上蠻依賴她的. She's more realistic, I knew I would feel much better after I talk to her.

其實真的沒必要搞到這樣, 搞到這麼難過. 真的, 又不是說要死了還是怎樣. 只要地球還是圓的, 以後總有再見面的機會.

只是, 人就活這麼一次, 也不過就是一輩子.

我願意, 高興就大聲的笑, 難過就用力的哭.

隱藏自己的保護色呢? 在外人面前戴的面具呢? 這些東西, 在朋友間太多餘了.

(下午四點, 該睡了嗎?)