When I wake up this morning, thanx to the dream I had, I start to hate myself.  That's... a rare feeling...

I'm not a perfect person (and I don't know any perfect person),  and I don't mind myself to have defect here and there.  Sometimes I even enjoy my weaknesses, and if possible, I try to fix my problems like everyone else.

Back to the dream thing...

Probably because of the ice cream she treated me last night, I was rather moved by the ice cream (???), probably beocoz I haven't had any girl treating me so nicely since... a long time ago.

Ken was right.  Even if I fail, I get something else invaluable in return... tho I'm still not sure what it is... or it's hard to describe in words...

Anyways, in my dream, I was fooling around with Claire...  in my room back in vancouver, but the scene outside the window is still in taipei.  And then, at some point of the fooling around process, I was going to praise her, for she looks really cute in my dream.

But then... I said my ex's name instead of hers...

She was furious to the degree that her whole body is shivering...

 
and I really really hate myself.